Have you ever felt like you can’t express your feelings? Have you ever felt like you wanna give up?
If you asked me those questions, the answers would be “yes”, definitely.
So, what? It’s not important for anyone, but myself, though.
Yeah, I knew. That’s why I keep it for myself. I don’t disclose what I feel to anyone (at least not now). I feel what I feel, and I’m the one who experience its effects by the way. Why bother to tell anyone, right?
Since you can endure it yourself, it must be not that bad.
Well, sorta? I just cry to the point it’s difficult for me to breathe. I also lose my spirit to do anything. I give up, I let it go, everything. Currently, I’m waiting for my departure time. I wanna get out from this world, but I still have so much sins hahaha. Doesn’t it mean I’ll go straight to the hell??
Well, I don’t know if it’s good or bad. Why don’t you seek help from people around you?
I did. I told what I feel to my sister who is currently sharing room with me, but she didn’t give any response hehe. I also told my closest friend, she told me to go to psychiatrist, then the next day she called me “lazy” because I still felt the same feelings HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
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